Theres a couple of things I want to address before I wanna jump in into todays topic. I’m very much aware that the blog is very bare bones right now and its sole design is text heavy and the features from the old days have been stripped out. Thats very much my intent is to start fresh but also keep it simple. Over the next few days, I will be refining the overall reading experience and will continue to streamline the content and how its organised on here. Improvements are on the way but for now I wanna focus on getting all the missed events and catch up stuff with everyone reading my blog!
Todays topic is all about the other entanglements which went the other way - and when I say the other way, I’m pertaining to the people who got attached to me and I did not necessarily reciprocated the feelings . Someone raised the question bad in mMay 2016, where they were like: “Tyrone, surely with the amount of people you work with (and the places) you visit and the people you know, you’ve had to have met someone who likes you”
Okay immediate disclaimer, I don’t want to sound like a douche but yes there have been and notably two in the last 2 years who were pretty strong in making their feelings known to me but in the end we just did not see each other in that way effectively. Coming from my side i was more focused on other things, other things that lead me to be on a different page than them.
Of course I am merely summarising here but undoubtedly theres so much layers and complications each set came along with but the best part of course always has to be the mutual respect and understanding that leads to me being good friends with them still and continuing to collaborate and talk and live life to the fullest. Its only recently that I’ve been back with the spark about the dating scene again and its also recently that Im sorta active again. from 2014 onwards i was so immersed in photography and videography and travelling that honestly it didn’t bother me anymore and I was no longer interested and I was kept so busy and felt very much whelmed by other things and ever since i went past the teenage years, there was more or less no more desire to be on adventures since everyone else around me had tried things already.
I was so also envious of the others around me who were very much settled in with their couple-y stuff before I was even involved in any slight chance ahahahaha but such is life. Some of them have kids, have wives and husbands and yes i said that in plural form LOL and get this lots of them celebrating 3 years anniversary and so forth. Like you can probably understand where the frustration is from, simply put I’m always your typical third wheel and in one time that oh boy, flipping 9th wheel in our group hang outs and it gets very VERY messy real quick when your the only one without anyone to hold while you walk in the pathway on the way home…
Thats pretty much everything caught up now and we’re all floating in this 2016 and rather than dwell of the complains and what IFs of the past now its time to like talk about the present and the now. Seriously I’ve bored some of my friends already about how it works to be being stuck in this situation of looking for a teenage dream but lets go for the sweep forward ahahaha
I’ll post tomorrow about the latest and so check back then :D
(PS: I noticed the mobile version of the blog is very wonky and like the formatting sucks ass so I’m gonna switch the blog theme once more to accommodate this and fix things!)